Priming for failure

When I thought of writing regularly for a change, I thought it would be the first step to some sort of regularity, and getting back on track.

But now I think it might serve as an indicator of when I am going back to my sad old ways.

I will stop writing regularly when I get back to my careless old self.

And then, I think about it after months, quit any job that I have, and think of starting all over again.

It took me 4 years the first time. 2 the next. and this time, it took only 6 months.

I hope I do find out what I want to do this time. And do it with all my might.

If I don't, the regularity of my posts which talk only about me will point towards the inevitable.

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